Danger Woman

I’m really getting concerned about my Little. For the second time in less than six months she’s hurt herself in major accident due to complete disregard of rules and her own self preservation.

Everyone was in their rooms for quiet time. I had a busy day at work and I was relaxing in bed too. I heard Little get up and shuffle off to the bathroom and then I heard her shuffle off back to her bedroom.  She came out of her room one other time, but I scolded her. A few moments later, just as the Boys settled down and I closed my eyes in comes Little, left hand, both arms, face, and legs covered in blood.

“Mama, it hurts. I need help.” She said sobbing.

So of course I immediately hopped up to clean her up and assess the damage. I asked her what happened and she said she cut herself trying to open a freeze pop with a kitchen knife. I cleaned her up as best as I could, and quickly wrapped her up with a bandaid before I followed her into her room where I found her bed covered in melted popsicle and not one, but TWO different knives from the knife block.

With my initial assessment of the cut I decided to take her to the urgent care. It was deep and I was afraid she might have cut under the nail bed. I figured worst case scenario I pay a $20 copay for them to bandage her up with some gauze and clean it. NOPE. My Little girl needed five stitches because she nearly severed the tip of her index finger.

She did really well, only freaking out when they gave her the numbing shot. The rest of the time she watched the entire procedure and chatted with the doctor and nurses about how she wants to be a doctor some day. Like she’d been getting sewn up after major trauma her entire life.

I don’t understand what’s going through her head lately. She refused to get a butter knife from the kitchen drawer to butter her toast because it was dangerous two days before the popsicle incident, yet then she thought the big kitchen knives, put away on the back of the counter (which she had to scale to get to the knives btw) that she’s never even been allowed to touch for any reason before… were totally not dangerous like the butter knife.

I don’t know… maybe it’s just part of her growing up. Is that a normal five year old behavior? Ignoring boundaries and rules to the point where they injure themselves? I’m going to talk to her pediatrician again at her follow up when they remove her sutures. Maybe it is just normal developmental behavior for an independent, headstrong kid…

6 thoughts on “Danger Woman

  1. Hey, that must be so concerning for you, I hope she’s okay now? It’s the kind of thing that is most likely a passing phase, but wouldn’t hurt to get it checked out. I remember when I was a toddler, I set fire to a piece of paper when I put it in a candle and then dropped it on our-wooden-floor. It was curiosity, and I wanted to know why I wasn’t allowed to play with fire, and whether adults were overexaggurating. I think it’s normal for children to be curious, and most of the time they learn from these lessons and grow to understand that these rules are there for their own safety :).

    From the way you described it, it sounds like a “normal” curiosity for a five year old to have, and it’s not necessarily going to continue for long. As long as she understands why she’s not allowed to do these things, she will hopefully see that people are only trying to protect her. You’re right to keep an eye on her though, and I think she’s really lucky to have such an amazing mum 🙂 x

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  2. Thanks for your encouraging words. She’s been through a lot in the past year or so and I worry that she isn’t coping very well. It’s so hard because my own mom ignored my symptoms of mental distress and made the damage for me so much worse. I don’t want to do that with my daughter. I also don’t want to project my own stress onto her either and she’s my oldest so all of this is new. I love her. I want her to be happy and healthy, but sometimes I feel like I’m ill equipped never having a positive roll model.

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  3. *cough* Um, speaking as the former kid who did untold damage to herself between the age of 3 and 9, yes, very, very normal. Mainly the fingers, too – knives, the hinges of cubicle doors and once under the lid of a coal stove. The last major one was locking my thumb in a car door, that was very unpleasant. Basically, while everyone else my age was breaking bones, I was doing the above 🙂 I know my mum felt the exact same way as you do, too, mainly because she told me! Every day was another day to panic her, couldn’t help myself.

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  4. I didn’t see this until now! I totally get how that makes you nervous, but I think you’re being way too hard on yourself. Just because your mum acted a certain way, does not mean you will automatically follow in her footsteps. It’s clear you love her, and are aware of what she needs, which is great. No parent “knows” what they’re doing as such, and whilst that’s scary, you’re doing the best you can and that’s more than can be said for some. Parents might not always be perfect, but if they act with love it’s very hard to look back in the future as an adult and be too bitter 🙂

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  5. That was the intention, so I’m glad you took it as encouraging! Yeah, we all go through bad weeks, it’s probably just a bit more frightening when there’s a small person involved 🙂

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