Speechless

So everything else is going on, on top of Hubs working first shift this week giving me an absolutely silent house after the Little goes to bed and several hours alone. Nice to have a little rest, but awful for the fact that I always recap my day with Hubs before I head to bed, unless I’m exceptionally exhausted and fall asleep before he gets home on his usual shift. Not having anyone to talk to in the evenings is really throwing me off.

I have my Little all day, and while her conversation skills are vastly improving it’s still not like having an adult conversation. THAT, and she’s three. I’m not going to burden her with the happenings in my life beyond what she can comprehend. lol. Developing or at least attempting to develop a healthy psyche before four is important. I’m not going to be the one to screw it up, or at least I’m going to do my best not to screw it up, but raising little humans is hard work. I’ll miss something, I’m sure, but it won’t be through lack of effort lol.

I have my phone and friends I can text or call, but I’m an extrovert, I need to TALK to someone daily or I start going stir crazy with loads of excess energy I can’t release. Which is difficult for my mega introvert Hubs to deal with, both the unloading of my extrovert energy onto him, and me being stir crazy. I wish more of my close friends lived physically close. They are all scattered across the country, and have lives of their own. Plus, ironically 90% of them are introverts. Not a lot of people can handle me unloading on them. Except you guys, blog reader people. lol. I can unload here all day long and you can simply choose to click through or interact, but I feel much better at least getting the words buzzing around in my head OUT.

Still… not the same as having Hubs half listening to me in the recliner. It’s only for a week, not like it’s the end of the world or a permanent change I just don’t have anywhere else to vent my frustrations so you get them here. lol.

2 thoughts on “Speechless

  1. Nice post, has a very gentle, calm energy in it which is kind of funny considering the stir crazy bit 😉

    Introverts tend to be good listeners, and also tend to understand which is important in listening. What you expressed made me think, I love thinking, so I’m very glad you share with your readers.

    I’m one of those people who when others say – Do you want to talk about it? – I tend to look at them as if they’re crazy. I prefer to talk to myself about it and shy away from talking with others.

    However sometimes I do need to voice things to someone else, usually because when you say things out loud it can clarify what is a mess in the mind, and they might give you a different perspective which you’ve missed. So talking is helpful… except sometimes I surprise people due to how much is going on inside someone who can appear to have nothing going on inside, and how much I can talk once I get started.

    Life is a strange experience. Blogging is very cathartic!

    Take care of yourself and your beautiful family, sounds like you’re a lovely mom 🙂

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  2. Thank you! Glad you stopped by. 🙂

    My husband is very much an introvert the way you described. There are things which he doesn’t want to talk about at all, but certain things he can talk about for days. It’s a bit frustrating because we’re so opposite, but it’s also one of the things that makes our relationship work. He keeps me from running away with my thoughts. 🙂

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