I wish I hadn’t seen his struggle.
I wish I could look back and only remember the ugly times.
The times he abused me.
The times he neglected me.
The times he abandon me.
I wish I didn’t have to see the times he cried.
The times he was vulnerable.
The times he was scared.
The times he was human.
I wish I could only remember the monster.
I wouldn’t be left with the crippling doubt.
Was it the humanity protecting me in my weakest moments?
Or was it the predator, merely defending his prey?
I wish I didn’t see the difference between them.
Two souls, trapped in one body.
I wish I could hate him.
I wish I could blame him.
I wish… I wish… I wish.