Into the Fray

The Fray, a poem by Jon Treloar.

Once more into the Fray…
Into the last good fight I’ll ever know.
Live and die on this day…
Live and die on this day…

Every time I come out of a particularly rough patch in my recovery this poem inspires me. I know no matter how much I want to conquer my psyche the nature of my disorders simply will not allow it. It’s not being pessimistic, as much as it is being realistic. I don’t take my moments of happiness for granted, but I always know that life in itself will be a continuing struggle for me. Choosing to continue my healing process even after set back, after set back. Not allowing the damage inflicted upon me to control me is a constant battle. A mental fray of often times insurmountable proportions, and yet I dive in headlong. Perhaps it’s my innate recklessness that allows me to do so, or perhaps it is the simple will to survive. Either way, this poem speaks to me.

Here it’s shared as a small snippet from the original sound track from the movie The Grey, which is where I first heard the poem recited.