Everything has gotten on my nerves today. EVERY. LAST. THING. It hasn’t even been a particularly stressful day, but I have been in a pissy mood none the less. Woke up that way, and will probably go to bed that way.
I’m currently trying to finish my psych degree that I’ve been neglecting for almost twelve years. In my defense, I’m glad it’s taken me this long to get my act together. I had no business being in the psychology field until I dealt with my own issues. lol. At any rate, I’m all set up to go, aside from a few missing pieces of my high school transcript. These very same pieces have prevented me from having a literal paper copy of my high school diploma all these years. Something got messed up with credits somewhere and I had to retake a bunch of classes. Not an issue… a pain in the ass, but not really that big of a deal. I have the knowledge it was just a formality. When I was first getting ready to finish school it pissed me off, hence why it’s taken me twelve years to get it together. lol. I FINALLY finished my missing course work, and now some other formality has popped up requiring me to retake something else. SO… I’m thinking about taking the GED and saying forget it. The only problem with that is I have to find a tutor to help me with math, and relearn English since it’s changed so much since I was in school. Yeah….. so that started my day off on a crappy note, and things have just kind of been steadily going down hill from there.
Yesterday was a crappy day of a different sort. My two year old decided that she was going to take off her diaper and shit on her carpet. Not only did she do that, but she stepped in it and tracked it all over her room. I had to go rent a rug doctor and shampoo her carpets which are still not dry over twenty four hours later. She absolutely refuses to sleep anywhere aside from her room, and she broke her toddler bed so we’ve been having her sleep on a twin mattress on the floor. I can’t put her mattress back in there until the carpet dries so we’ve taken all of the extra blankets out of the closets and made her a make shift mattress until the carpet dries. I feel horrible, especially since the blankets are soaking up the water from the carpet! She was dry this morning, but I had to toss all of the blankets in the dryer before she could sleep on them again tonight. I tried snuggling with her on the couch, and I tried having her sleep with us in our bed. She wasn’t having it. Hopefully her floor is dry tomorrow so I can put her real bed back in there, although she hasn’t had nearly as many night terrors sleeping in a pile of blankets.
Since her seizures started she has been a world of a different kid. She hasn’t had anymore episodes yet, but she absolutely refuses to take a nap during the day and has been waking up several times a night after her night terrors. Her seizures are brought on by exhaustion, so every day she goes longer and longer with out catching up on her rest the more anxious I get, and the more crabby she gets. These past few weeks have been quite a struggle with her. I’m ready for a mommy break. lol. Hopefully I can get one this weekend so I can catch up on the rest of my writing, and projects. I am so far behind it’s not even funny and we’re heading into the holidays. Ugh… What a hectic crazy year this year.