Here I am. Good hearted, pure intention Kelli, not leaving things alone and inadvertently making them worse while trying to make them better. AS USUAL. Ugh. I feel kind of bad, but at the same time I am so over this mess I really don’t care anymore. I’m tired of trying to be the good guy and do the right thing. I’ve finally realized that the accusations against me, were just that. Accusations. I’m not responsible for what people believe I’m only responsible for how I behave. I fully admit I made some terrible mistakes at the beginning. I understand I have to live with the consequences of said mistakes, but that’s on me. It’s time for others to accept their own mistakes and stop throwing blame around. I don’t hate anyone, I’m not trying to screw anyone over. I just can’t care anymore. The constant back and forth is brutal. On top of my own issues it’s too much. I’d like to say I’m sorry, but I’m really not.
ANYWAY… moving on from those shenanigans… I about killed myself on the WOD today. I hadn’t been feeling well so I hadn’t really eaten anything, and what I did eat was sugar laden crap so I really didn’t have the energy today. I managed to finish half the reps before my body gave out. It’s not that what we did today was hard, I was just completely exhausted. I am currently sprawled out in the living room not wanting to move ever again. lol. Unfortunately I can’t do that because it’s Wednesday and that means grocery day. I get to drop Kevin off at work and trek down to Indy in search of fresh produce. Wheee!!I am still super impressed with this whole Paleo thing. We’ve been doing really well with the exception of heading out of town this past weekend. Let me tell you I could feel it. My stomach hated me for two whole days just because I didn’t stick to my diet. The ironic thing is because I was feeling so awful I didn’t want to cook anything either! lol. I did make a pretty sweet meat loaf last night. They call it a Hidden Veggie Meatloaf.
I’ve tried to get the link to the recipe like five times now, but I keep getting distracted with the dog and Little. lol. I guess since they’re getting into everything I should probably cut this post short. Until later Bloggies. 🙂