Bloggies… sorry I haven’t been posting much, but I’ve kind of been lost in my own thoughts. Thoughts that were WAY too muddled and flippant to actually write about. lol. That, and I’m kind of hesitant to write anything here right now.
I can’t really get into too many details because it’s a personal matter, but a recent situation has arisen involving me, things I’ve said and written, and there has been a GIANT misunderstanding. It’s not that what I said was untrue, but it’s getting taken massively out of context. I tried to explain, but the other parties involved are just not being receptive right now. So…. I don’t really want to make anything worse. I didn’t really want to be involved in the first place, but now that I am I don’t really know what to do. Especially because something I said innocently in confidence has been turned all around against me.
I don’t really want to stop writing because I haven’t actually done anything WRONG by writing my life and stories here, but at the same time I don’t want to add any fuel to the fire so to speak. I’ve apparently been unintentionally doing so for a long time. It’s…. just confusing and complicated. I feel some what violated in a way, yet at the same time I can understand where the other parties are coming from. I want to be empathetic to their plight, but I can’t really sacrifice such a big part of myself for the sake of empathy. One can only care so much for others before you have to care for yourself.
I don’t know…. I mean I really don’t know. I don’t even want to publish this honestly, but I guess I will. If there is massive dramatic fall out, I guess I’ll deal with it when it rears it’s ugly head again. It won’t be my first time at the rodeo so… yeah.