Much Needed Quiet Time

Tomorrow is a big day for us Bloggies. Nora is spending the night with some friends of ours, while Kevin and I get the entire evening to ourselves. We haven’t had an entire night to ourselves since….. our Anniversary last year! lol. I’m excited and nervous all at the same time. Not nervous that Nora will have inappropriate care, because let’s face it, if I didn’t trust you with my kid you wouldn’t be keeping her over night. I’m confident she will be in good hands, but I’m nervous about how she’s going to behave when it comes to bed time lol. She is very particular about her sleeping arrangements and VERY grumpy when she doesn’t have them. Hopefully she’ll be having so much fun that she’ll just pass out and not even think about it lol. 

We don’t really have any specific plans as far as what we’re going to do for our evening alone, but it’s nice to have the option available. I don’t think I’m going to feel like doing much of anything. Weening off of processed sugar/grains SUCKS. I have zero energy, and a super headache. That’s still throwing in some sugar daily. I mean I know that’s why I’m WEENING off and not just cutting it out, but wow. I did the dishes this morning and I’ve only been awake for an hour yet I’m exhausted and ready for a nap. lol. That’s the only complaint I have with Paleo right now, but it was expected so I will soldier on and continue. The menu is delicious, and all of the recipes thus far have been really easy to prepare. I think the most complicated dish I’ve yet to prepare is the cauliflower side for tonight’s dinner. That’s not even really difficult, it just has the most steps to prepare. lol. 

Is it sad that I feel like a better person because I have fresh veggies in the house, and actually take the time to cook our meals? I feel like it’s kind of stupid, but I really do feel much more accomplished at the end of the day after dicing up the fresh veggies and spending a few hours in the kitchen. I also smile like a giddy fangirl when I open the fridge and see all the green. I don’t really know why, but I guess a self esteem boost isn’t awful despite the unusual circumstances lol. I’m easily amused I guess? 

Ooooooooo! Something else exciting! I officially start my CrossFit training on Monday. I’m psyched and a little scared all at the same time lol. It was kind of funny when the trainer asked why I was joining and I answered: “Well… honestly I have PTSD and my therapist recommended it to burn off some of my excess adrenaline.” To which he asked: “Oh, so you were in the military?” and I replied: “No… abusive past.” and then the awkward silence ensued. To which I chuckled. He was the first actual completely random person I’ve shared my diagnosis with. I figured it would be better going into something so intense with my crazy out in the open incase I was triggered and started freaking out. Not that I want people walking around on eggshells, but I’ve never been in a situation like that before and I’m not entirely sure how it’s going to affect me. No one wants to see Kelli Hulk Out and start breaking expensive equipment. Well I shouldn’t say no one, because I’m sure there are a few who would find it entertaining, but I don’t want to do that. lol.

Anyway… I have some cleaning to catch up on, and a baby who keeps bringing me Legos saying: “Play! Mama! Play!” lol. Until later Bloggies. 🙂