16 Compared to this time last year, are you: Happier or sadder?
You know… so much has been going on I don’t really remember what all was going on last year, so I can’t really say. I know overall I’m much happier than I’ve been in a really long time. I don’t know how much of it is actually “happiness” vs just being more content with what I’ve been blessed with in life.
17 Richer or poorer?
Richer in spirit, about the same as far as material gains go. Our bills are paid, the kid always has food on her plate, and clothes on her body. I think we’re doing really well. Sure there are some nice things that we go with out, but all the things that really matter are more than taken care of. Can’t really complain about that.
18 What do you wish you’d done more of?
I wish I had spent more time with my Little. Kind of sounds odd since basically all I do is spend time with my Little, but I feel like even though I’ve been here she’s grown up so much it feels like I’ve missed something. Looking into her big bright eyes now, vs looking into her big bright eyes last year it almost seems like she’s a completely different person. I guess in a way she kind of is. This time last year she was only three months old, just barely starting to get a grasp on the world. This year she is mobile, much more vocal, and a lot more emotional. She’s always been a tiny little person, but she’s developing her personality and it all happened in the blink of an eye.
19 What do you wish you’d done less of?
Dwelling on the past. It’s not that I really WANTED to so much as that I was stuck on repeat. I lacked the necessary tools to kick start my mind back to the present. Thankfully, after a whole bunch of time and effort I don’t have to worry about that anymore. Well at least not in the capacity that I did last year. To say it doesn’t sneak up on me now and again would be dishonest, but at least the memories come now as passing ships, and don’t drop anchor as intrusive thoughts.