Deck the Halls

I’ve been busily crafting Christmas ornaments since yesterday. The process is simple enough, but WOW does it take a lot longer than I anticipated. Of course that could also be because I’m using a few extra steps aside from the directions I found… but hey. They’re turning out wonderfully! Once I get them all done I can’t wait to send them out with the Christmas cards to their eventual homes. Is that lame of me? To mail Christmas gifts across town? lol. Well with only one car right now, and everyone else having such busy schedules I think mail is easier than trying to catch everyone in the right mood at the right time for personal deliveries. Or I’m really lame. Either way… lol

I woke up in such a funk this morning. I don’t know if it was a dream, a flashback, or my occasional sleep apnea that startled me awake early this morning but it was pretty intense. I want to say it was a dream combined with the sleep apnea, but it was so vivid. Almost like reliving a memory. I don’t know. I have no idea what my subconscious was doing last night, but it wasn’t sleeping that’s for sure. I’m exhausted. lol. I guess I’m going to have to lay off the coffee for a while. That’s really the only thing that was different. I had a large iced coffee from McDonald’s for breakfast. I normally do decaf but I splurged. My bad. lol.

I think this month I’m going to get back into my yoga. Maybe not the really hardcore sculpting physical stuff, but definitely the meditation part of it. Apparently our difficulties conceiving Baby 2 are due at least in part to my PTSD. It’s part of the physical manifestation of the entire thing. Even when I’m not really stressed out my body reacts as though I am, which means no babies for me. At least until I can get to a state of relaxation where my body quits freaking out. I don’t really KNOW for certain if yoga is what got me there before, but I was practicing pretty regularly before Nora and it definitely won’t kill me to calm down and meditate for a while that’s for sure lol.

Speaking of Yoga… I think I’m going to go do that right now. Make me feel better before it gets worse. Because now it just hurts. Until later Bloggies. 🙂