I woke up this morning Bloggies to a blast of notifications from the weather app on my phone. Apparently since it’s unseasonably warm, and there is a massive cold front slipping down from Canada we’re supposed to have an entire barrage of severe weather. Like the entire state of Indiana is in the high risk zone for potential tornadoes. If you actually listen to the news or weather today it sounds like we could be wiped off the face of the Earth by tomorrow.
On the one hand, I’m thankful for the concern of weather people nationwide taking the time to inform us of our potential destruction, but on the other hand I think this is getting blown waaaaaaaaay out of proportion. Of course here I am typing this with nary a cloud in the sky, and will more than likely be eating my words later tonight. It’s just that so often these days the mere idea of a threatening situation gets exploded by hype creating a constant atmosphere of fear.
For me, someone who has issues keeping their fear responses in check, living in a constant atmosphere of fear is the most draining, and depressing state ever. As you can see, I become either apathetic, or hyper vigilant. Remember back in the summer when I packed Nora up and flew to Ohio in a furry because of that storm which was supposed to reek havoc? Yeah… hyper vigilance.
Recently with the news getting so crazy over the smallest little things, and all of the political drama, and just the state of life in general for our country I’ve just stopped caring. I mentioned this a little bit last week in reposting Jaded. It’s not that I don’t WANT to care, somewhere my empathy is still in there. It’s that I CAN’T care. Physically, emotionally, mentally, CAN’T care, because if I start to care my brain flips into hyper vigilance mode and instantly EVERYTHING becomes a threat to me. I am the living embodiment of the Hulk, except instead of anger that starts me raging all over the place, it’s fear.
My defense against my hyper vigilance tendencies? Apathy. It makes life pretty difficult when on one hand I have an overflowing well of kindness and empathy, but there are somethings that I just respond to with cold, and brutal honesty. Keeps those that love me on their toes that’s for sure. lol. It is beneficial in the way that I can handle a crisis undeterred by emotional stuff. I mean in the heat of the moment I get in, get done, and get out. Keeping a cool head has saved my life at least four times that I can think of, so it’s not all bad. It’s just really difficult for the world at large to understand.
Anyway… I have chores to catch up on since I neglected them during NaNo. lol. Until later Bloggies. 🙂