Digging Deeper

I’ve pretty much finished writing about my life from 2005-2009. I’m going back and tweaking somethings for congruence but the basic story is all there and completed. Surprisingly it was the easier part to write about. I guess that’s because I’ve been trapped there for quite a while. Thankfully now that it’s all written down I find it a lot easier to… let go I guess? I wouldn’t say I’m completely there because I still run into things that take me back. I mean I’m never going to forget anything (sorry, it’s just not happening) but it at least doesn’t send me spiraling down into depression, or flip me out into a fit of rage anymore. lol. I consider that quite an accomplishment considering how it’s been for the past… five years? Six years? However long it’s been. lol. I had so much going on during all of that, time seems to have slipped away from me.

Now that I’ve gotten that out of the way, I’m starting to delve deeper into my life. Kind of looking into all of the whys and hows that lead me to make the choices I did when I was first starting out into adulthood. Going ALLLLLLLLLLL the way back like that is proving a lot harder than I thought it would. I mean, there are memories there, it’s not like I’ve blocked anything out, but finding the motivation to write about it, and piecing it all together into my narrative is quite challenging. I think part of it is I’m not around anything that triggers me, being safely tucked away in Indiana. I probably need to take a few weeks as a writers retreat and visit all of my old stomping grounds. If they’re still available to visit anyway… lol. It’s been that long, and boy do I feel old realizing that. lol.

This week is going to be filled with lots of introspective thoughts, coffee and all the documentaries I can find on National Parks. I’m a rebellious spirit, what can I say? Until later Bloggies. 🙂