I’m at the point where there is so much to do in the next two days that I don’t want to do any of it. lol. We did finished the living room which is a big plus, but I still have to make all the decorations, and do my normal weekly cleaning. I don’t feel well, and my brain is mush doing my counseling homework. I thought I was thinking about this stuff too much BEFORE I went to therapy? HA! Yeah. I can barely function mentally right now. lol Well assuming I could mentally function before…
My mind is all over the place, so please don’t put too much weight on my ramblings here. It’s all raw and honestly how I feel at whatever time I happen to sit down to write it, but that doesn’t mean the feelings will stick for more than a day or two. If you read something and it upsets you, come back in a day or two and I’ll be changing my mind. lol. That’s kind of how things are going right now.
I’m currently in the midst of a battle with myself right now. Aren’t you all lucky to be able to watch the insanity unfold?? lol. But in all seriousness, things have been all over the place especially this weekend when I haven’t had a chance to write and process. I’ve been writing, but nothing worthy of posting to the masses. I’m trying my best to get away from my posting my “crazy” posts here and keeping them to myself, but it’s not going as well as I planned. The more I keep bottled up, the more my mind wanders into places it shouldn’t. It’s a slippery slope indeed.
I mean it’s awesome for the whole book writing thing because I can remember things now that had been lost in the shadow of other memories and worry, but it’s kind of scary back there in my memory banks. I’m not entirely sure that I like it. It IS helping with my panic attacks though. Having the incite to pinpoint my triggers and deal with them accordingly. I guess it’s all part of the process.
It’s nice to see I haven’t scared too many people away with my insanity, too. lol. I ❤ you Bloggies. 🙂