The Point of No Return

The cicadas started singing this morning. It was like a light switch lol. Yesterday, no cicadas, today they are making a whole bunch of racket. I didn’t really notice that it’s almost the end of July so I guess it’s time for it, but wow. Summer flew by like no body’s business this year. The local schools go back the second week of August!! That means like four more weeks of kids running around, and then blissful quiet afternoons again. Well as quiet as my Little will allow lol. In just ten short weeks my Little will be turning 1 and we will offcially start trying for Baby 2.

That’s kind of scary actually. I mean we definitely want another kid, and we definitely want them to be this close in age, but up until now it’s just been plans we’ve been making, it hasn’t really sunk (sank?) in yet. It’s going to be so much different this time around, and I’m kind of worried about it. With Nora I could just lounge around and do nothing all day if I wanted to. I didn’t have a toddler to chase around and entertain. Yes, here would be where people would interject about how much better it is to wait longer between kids and blah blah blah, but no. Kevin and I have weighed the options and trying for Baby 2 after Nora’s first birthday is definitely what we want to do. I don’t want to listen to lectures, I don’t want to have people explain. I just want to vent my feelings and move on. No amount of lecturing will change my mind.

I ESPECIALLY don’t want people projecting their fears on to me. Twins run in my family so Kevin and I are well aware that when we try again twins are a possibility. We aren’t going to just settle for Nora because we MIGHT have twins, and I don’t want to hear any crap about how parents of multiples get divorced x percent more than parents with singles. MY FAMILY has twins and every marriage survived, thanks.  I’m not saying it won’t be extra difficult with two newborns and Nora, but come on now. Give me at least SOME credit.

It really doesn’t help that people in Nowheresville assume because I blog my frustrations that I’m leaving Kevin, or unhappy. I am unhappy with the SITUATION not with MY HUSBAND, or my marriage. Perhaps if these people would actually take the time to TALK to me instead of just creeping on my blog and making assumptions they would know this. *AHEM*

Anyway… I can feel a rant bubbling up and I don’t want to launch into an angry tyrade right now. lol. I think I’m going to enjoy a nice Sunday nap. Until later Bloggies. 🙂

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