The Post You’ve All Been Waiting For

Here it is. The reason (or at least one of them) that you’ve been religiously stalking my blog forever. I don’t expect a reply, I don’t expect us to sit by the camp fire and sing songs holding hands, I don’t even know when/if you’ll bother to read it, but I’m going to post it because it’s more a matter of my personal integrity than anything.

I apologize. In the heat of battle, heartbreak, lies and confusion I did and said things that were wrong and hurtful to both of you. At the time it seemed valid, but being able to look back on it now it was completely wrong. I made accusations and assumptions based on the very minimal information I had, and I shouldn’t have done things that way. I was young, stupid and completely blindsided by it all. Not that it’s an excuse for my behavior but it is what it is.

You don’t have to forgive me, you don’t even have to acknowledge my existance really. Like I said it was more for my own personal integrity than anything else. Just know that I am (and have been forever even though mean and nasty some times I am a woman the mood swings are inevitable) sincerely happy for you both.  I’ve been over it for a while, but recently there has just been one thing after another popping up in my life that reminded me of… well okay since we’re being all feely and honest here, reminded me of you. As an individual, and your life together. If I’ve learned anything over the past few years it’s that if something keeps coming up you should address it, not ignore it.

I’ve typed this out a millions times before, but never until now did it feel like the right time to actually post it. Hopefully my intuition isn’t horribly wrong this go around and this won’t cause the onslaught of Dramafest ’13. So… yeah. There you go.

2 thoughts on “The Post You’ve All Been Waiting For

  1. I am assuming this was directed towards me…and Thank you. I too have things that pop up and remind me of the past and I occasionally check out your site…not to stock you, but to reassure myself that we have both grown and have gotten all that we want at this point in our lives. I wasnt expecting an apology, but it makes me respect you more knowing that you have provided me with one. No, this is not going to start drama, but like you said, we wont be friends, or sit around the campfire singing songs…given the past i think that would be quite awkward. I am happy to see that you and Kevin are doing great…and i have no grudges to hold…thank you again, and i too am sorry, hopefully you wont doubt the sincerity.

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  2. This post was for you. You didn’t have to reply, but I’m glad you did. It’s okay if you pop in every once and a while. It’s not stalking, I know that, but I was angry and confused and didn’t quite know how else to put it in the beginning of all of this so the term stuck.

    Just know that in the future if I refer to my blog stalkers it’s not a reference to you. I do have people legit stalking here so y’know, I’ll probably post a rant or two about the subject every once and a while. It’s all good between us though. 🙂

    Don’t ever feel weird about commenting or asking a question either. I mean, it’s a blog. Complete strangers give me their opinions all the time. It’s not awkward.

    Anyway… thanks for the reply, and understanding even after I’ve been such a jerk. Hope things are going well for you too. 🙂

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