Here it is. The reason (or at least one of them) that you’ve been religiously stalking my blog forever. I don’t expect a reply, I don’t expect us to sit by the camp fire and sing songs holding hands, I don’t even know when/if you’ll bother to read it, but I’m going to post it because it’s more a matter of my personal integrity than anything.
I apologize. In the heat of battle, heartbreak, lies and confusion I did and said things that were wrong and hurtful to both of you. At the time it seemed valid, but being able to look back on it now it was completely wrong. I made accusations and assumptions based on the very minimal information I had, and I shouldn’t have done things that way. I was young, stupid and completely blindsided by it all. Not that it’s an excuse for my behavior but it is what it is.
You don’t have to forgive me, you don’t even have to acknowledge my existance really. Like I said it was more for my own personal integrity than anything else. Just know that I am (and have been forever even though mean and nasty some times I am a woman the mood swings are inevitable) sincerely happy for you both. I’ve been over it for a while, but recently there has just been one thing after another popping up in my life that reminded me of… well okay since we’re being all feely and honest here, reminded me of you. As an individual, and your life together. If I’ve learned anything over the past few years it’s that if something keeps coming up you should address it, not ignore it.
I’ve typed this out a millions times before, but never until now did it feel like the right time to actually post it. Hopefully my intuition isn’t horribly wrong this go around and this won’t cause the onslaught of Dramafest ’13. So… yeah. There you go.